I’m at my computer. Engaging in my favourite activity which as you know is the holy wank. My body is electrified and I’m totally into the porn flick I’ve found on Youporn. There’s a hot woman in latex with a collared girl in latex. This is really good…I’m loving it. And then it turns…it turns into BDSM. My clit shrinks. I can’t cum now.
I’m the fetishist not into BDSM.
I can’t get it. I want role play. I want collars. I want latex. But I don’t want to flog or slap anyone with a paddle. I want to wear the outfits and gently make my (someday) sub to eat my pussy for 10 hours, true. I’ll order her to masturbate for my partner until I allow her to stop. She’ll be our little slut and she won’t bother me, her mistress during the week when I don’t see her. She’ll have another lover and she’ll adore me as her mistress and friend. Where is this little bitch? I want a cute little sub. Awww..Isn’t that cuddly?
The difference between fetishism and BDSM remains that fetishists are into accutrements- into objects and also scenarios. I’d like to dominant someone who would be submissive to me but I guess that’s the D in BDSM. The B is okay too…some nice cuffs never hurt anyone. They look lovely on the wrists as well and I’m sure Ms. sub will look really hot tied up to my bed whilst I fuck her without mercy with a strap-on.
My friend R and her lover are fetishists but she does like BSDM. I went to this “munch” where people go to meet other people and I felt totally left out in this room with all these dominatrix types. I really don’t get along with women more dominant than I am and I just go cold with whips and chains thing. I went looking for Ms. sub but it was all intrusive and obnoxious Mistress types overcompensating for their lack of looks and personalities by being hard-hitting and annoying. It’s like those guys who speed in sports cars with train-wreck faces and small cocks.
I used to do some work for this fetish magazine and it used to annoy me how lumped together everything is. There’s a lot of fetishists (particularly light fetishists like me) who really don’t need to see people being spanked or cut or strapped to dungeon equipment.I’m supposed to go fetish clubbing but I have to choose a big venue because I just don’t want to be bothered or harrassed.
I even get fetishes that some people find really out there like Pony Play or adult babies. I’m not into it personally but I don’t mind seeing pictures of it. I have to admit I think having someone on a leash is pretty interesting.
I’d like my someday sub but do obey me because she wants to. Let her give her submission freely. I’m very afraid of insane people wrecking my relationship so I’ve sort of semi-looked for Ms. sub. I had a friend ages ago who might be suitable but she doesn’t live here. I wouldn’t say I really have an open relationship but not a closed relationship either. It’s a relationship with the potentially to try an agreed scenario. Sometimes it feels like I’ll never get there.
A friend of mine had this on and off again thing with her girlfriend and now they have an open relationship. I kind of wish I could just say that I have an open relationship but I don’t want anyone to take that as an “I can have a chance”. You have a chance, if I say you do! Otherwise you don’t. “Goodbye in AOL voice”.
I’ve run out of money before and contemplated being a dominatrix but I wouldn’t because I don’t like men enough to even dominate them. If they pay me, I think they still call the shots and it would make me feel cheap.Once this girl I knew was part of this foot fetish party and I needed money and this guy wanted to play with my feet and my friend and I made out and asked him what he wanted and I was like 19 and he offered to give me 20 for a handjob. I did it and cried like baby afterwards and I would never do any sort of thing like that ever again. I can’t judge people who do but it wasn’t for me.
If I were to go looking for Ms. sub and shout out what I was looking for from the rooftops, it might be better. I just don’t know.But I certainly won’t be whipping her. I’m a fetishist, damn it!